Tuesday, May 13, 2008
There is none like you...
Concern is the word that has been constantly down graded to naggings... But you notice the values of this nagging when you are hit with a crisis. I love my friends; I cherish my family. I must be positive!
Sunday, May 11, 2008
A wonderful family dinner
But let's not dwell on the unhappy stuff. Today we went to Vivo! Seriously speaking, Vivo is huge that I rell never have the opportunity to explore every single corner that this mall has to offer.
Yes let's dive into dinner first. You know what we had??? EARL SWENSON'S... It is really delicious. Yes this time I am able to control my eating. I took a slower pace. Although it has a salad buffet bar, I didn't fill my plate to the brim and took what I relly want. I ate slowly and refill only three times. I have my limits.. YES! I have control now! There is much more to learn. Yes I need more training in buffets... Then we paid Tangs a visit... well window shoppin I guess... But I sort of learn how to relax myself by this kinds of shopping.. RETAIL THERAPY???? haha
My mum and sis headed to the female undies section.. so no choice, I have to follow. At least I tried to make myself comfortable and not feel queasy at all. Come on.. I am forced there ok! I am not a pervert!
Ok picture time!
Ok man Good nite guys!
My Lovely Mum
She is a woman of tenacity, of strength and courage. I've pick up both good and bad traits from her, albeit a little less from my dad! Mum and I have walk through a rather intereseting journey with me, and I must admit that these 22 year must not have been smooth-saling. However tulmultous the path may be, her undaunted spirit lingers.
Fortitude and determination is her ethos. She firmly belief in having full confidence in everything that one does.
I take pride in whatever she has contributed to this family, being a hardcore engineer and then sacrifising her highly held glory to become an unsung hero- A Housewife.
Today's newspaper shows how much a housewife should be paid if all errands were accounted for.. It summed up to be like $23000 a month. There is a catch here... Why such a high pay where a common maid could only command a monthly pay of $500? The ultimate truth is that mothers are just irreplacable, they really do more than house keeping. They give their hearts out when it comes to the well being of each family member. Being A housewife is not an easy task and I respect all housewifes.
The Lord has been good to me. Everytime when there is a major crisis in life, I aways know that my mum is my shelter and she is God-given. She is my safety haven, my temple of solace. Nothing can replace her.
My you have always been there for me. I really love you! I will do you proud!
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Beautiful Girl...
The movie was great and I actually interacted with the movie itself- I was totally engrossed and at some part, sway my head as if I was the protaganist, avoiding the bullets sprayed on me.
At the end of it all.. Nothing beats the sms sent by my angel... Last night, there was this sudden sms from her which is nothing serious... Finally I've got a candid sms from her... Yeah. Great interaction took place. I really feel happy but at the same time felt an overwhelming concern for her lethargy. Well I really cherish a good friend like her and I dunno whether she felt the same for me???
Anyway, I was so tense last night and instead of having a slumber, I went into a duel with sleeplessness!
Haiz.. Beautiful girl.... What can I hope of us? Yesterday I learnt something from Jonathan actually. He said to have a strong relationship there must be a strong and solid foundation- One that streches on trust and based on mutual respect. If there are difference (bound to have), they should be resolved in a peaceful and repectful way rather than to see giving up in that relationship as the best option. Everyone is special.... That is what my colleague told me... There is no such thing as wierd. How people look at and perceive you is uncontrollable but as long as you did your best to potray the best you can (candidly), there will always be breakthroughs...
Ok guys. I look forward to NUS!
Monday, May 5, 2008
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Another relaxing day....
I want to go out.. but I can't.. Not exercise... But to spend my time doing stuff like library, shopping.. just looking around.
Actually, life is short, so I really can't just let it slip away. I really want to have something to do every moment.... Not the compulsion. And certainly not exercising or eating every moment... That I will revert back to my old bulimic Darren.. the evil one..
Just now, my mum commented on me being very thin again..
I told myself weight and bulimia is two different thing. I try not to let this issue sadden my heart. But frankly speaking, there are happy people who are thin and are not bulimic! So the most important thing is, like what my Aunt wil say: must have the correct thinking. That is what is the most important!!! You can hover around the ideal weight and still be bulimic! That is certainly not what I want. I want a recovery that is long term and that is beneficiary to my health... Not a short term one that serves to create temporal happiness to those close to me.
I know it sounds selfish... And I have already broken my parents hearts.. Please give me some time...
Thanks Cui Fang for the conversation just now.. If not I really got nothing to look forward to...
Saturday, May 3, 2008
Today is my best Ah Gong Ah Ma day...
Yeah! Finally! Today I had a successful interaction with the elderlies!
1. I played blackjack.. The old Aunty way.. They taught me how to shuffle their way and ho to be a good "zheng kae"
2. I sang Hokkien song/ chinese oldies
3. I massaged Uncle John
4. Manage to persuade an old uncle from 3rd storey down to join the rest.
5. Feed one friendly old uncle who can speak ENGLISH!!!
Nicole and a baby from one of the volunteers...
Oh yes today was the first time I engage with the moral angels for brainstorming and meeting. Next week, we are bringing the Ah Gong Ah Ma to China Town... or contigency plan would be Terminal 3, Changi Airport.
Yes, Next Saturday, my class is having a port luck party... Hope I can come up with nice sandwiches!!!
Alright man! gotta go!
Friday, May 2, 2008
Love is a powerful object
Oh yes my interview did go smoothly! Yeah! Praise the Lord! I am accepted by NUS. Although I must start afresh, am not afraid or ashamed! At least I spent a year relooking into the holes of my life.
Ok as for yesterday:
Mathias is so cute la! He really made my day... Actually not only him... But the whole family... They are so warm! Finally got to see Cui en, Josephine's sis (Thanks for the wishes :) )and the hardworking Josephine Dad!
I really enjoyed my time... Guess this is part of life!
Interview???
I am gonna start my journey a fresh. With a new heart, with a rejuvinated soul! Yeah!
Today.. or rather, 2 more hours later, I am gonna see the head and deputy head of Material Science & Engineering Dept. I wonder what are they gonna ask me man.
Yes... Yesterday I had an enjoyable time man.. I will load the pictures tonight!
Ok.. all the best Darren!
Thursday, May 1, 2008
What is the Holy Grail of Science?
Professor Julian ChaudhuriBath University
Talking about regeneration, it really gives me an idea of giving back life to people. Jst like how I got back my life, I really hope Ican give life to people too... In the tech news of BBC, I happen to chance upon two medical discovery- One of which is synthethic blood vessel and the other is Extra cellular tissue implant and growth. Talking about my future area of research, which is too earlyto catch a glimpse of... I would most likely endeavour upon the hopes of naotechnology to come up with some bio compatible material or medicine. By far, medicine has its impact manifested via the chemical way and very few medicine actually uses physical interations to weed out errors in our human system (probably with the exception of some chinese medicine). I really wish for that day to come, when I have enough say to make an impact to the scientific/medical arena.
Talking about my life, some celebrities shared the same sorrow as me:
Celebrities With EDs
Jane Fonda- You've seen her in movies and you may have seen her playing some sports. Others know her as an activist and some personally know her as a wife and a mother. In the 1970's she went public with her bulimiarexia. She had an ED for about 20 years!
Jamie-Lynn Sigler- Or to us she's Tony Soprano's daughter. She became a spokeswoman for ED men/women.Tracey Gold- She was an actress since she was four, doing soda commercials and working a role in Growing Pains. Not only did she have an ED but she ALSO had ADD.
Sally Field- Anybody remember her? She was the Flying Nun. No wonder she had an ED.
Carre Otis- If you dont know who she is, I suggest you start buying some better thinspiration magazines. Shes a top fashion model who's had an ED for nearly 17yrs.
Paula Abdul- For the non-American Idol fans, shes a singer and a dancer famous for her necklines and her skin-tight dresses. She had such an ED that she had a "food cop" patrolling her kitchen! I wish I had one of thoes! She used to exercise 4-5 times a day AND she does yoga. And you think YOU work hard to maintain your figure?
Victoria Beckham- Remember back to your Spice Girl phase... oh come on... admit it, we all went through the Spice Girls at one point. Victoria Beckham, or Posh Spice, told about her ED in her autobiography. As far as I can remember, she looked to be at an average weight to me. Shows what makeup can do to a person I guess.
Joan Rivers- Shes a hilarious commedienne, author, entrepreneur AND a mother. Talk about multi-tasking! Her ED developed after her husbands suicide. She delt with her problems by binging on cookies, entire cakes and gallons of ice cream. Shes now recovered.
The Barbi Twins- They were playboy playmates at one point. They were ana/mia both, and shared their insite as part of Body Image Awareness Week. They really do look like Barbies! I'll try to find a good picture of them for my thinspiration page.Whitney Houston- Publicly expressed her eating disorder when passing out at a concert. She should have taken her multvitamins.
Courtney Thorne-Smith- A former star of Ally McBeal, aparently she still has an eating disorder.
Yada yada yada.. The list goes on... but there seems toe no males... Am I a shame to my community? Hmmm... Something to ponder upon. Right now, I am gaining back my old Darren, the friendly, sociable YOMAN. Yes.. I will be back.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
The master of talking cock.
Monday, April 28, 2008
Why Fail
Sunday, April 27, 2008
I am ready...
For my DRIVING TEST tomorrow!
Scary but I am going to overcome it. Let's see. If I really pass tomorrow I will have loads to celebrate. I put in alot of effort, money, and attention this time round. I really wish that the Lord will be with me tomorrow.. Amen!... No Lord is always with me!
Today is my tuition day again... Put in loads of hardwork in prepring notes for this student of mine. I really hope he knows how to reciprocate.
Then later, I went to church with Josephine. Today's sermon was awesome. Pastor Khong taught us to fear the Lord, for the fear will bring us no fear to worldly things... I had a rising urge to pray for Josephine and I did it near the end of the service. Not very good with my words but I meant well.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Blackholes and Revelations....
Schwarzschild geometry
where G is Newton's gravitational constant, and c is the speed of light. For a 30 solar mass object, like the black hole in the fictional star system here, the Schwarzschild radius is about 100 kilometers.
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Horizon
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Schwarzschild metric
The quantity ds denotes the invariant spacetime interval, an absolute measure of the distance between two events in space and time, t is a `universal' time coordinate, r is the circumferential radius, defined so that the circumference of a sphere at radius r is 2 pi r, and do is an interval of spherical solid angle. |
Embedding diagram
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Gravitational slowing of time
This time dilation factor tends to zero as r approaches the Schwarzschild radius rs, which means that someone at the Schwarzschild radius will appear to freeze to a stop, as seen by anyone outside the Schwarzschild radius. |
Gravitational redshift
than the emitted wavelength. The redshift factor tends to infinity as r approaches the Schwarzschild radius rs, which means that someone at the Schwarzschild radius will appear infinitely redshifted, as seen by anyone outside the Schwarzschild radius.
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No stationary frames inside the Schwarzschild radius
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Schwarzschild spacetime diagram
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Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Would you take my hands?
Actually the results are quite ok..I should say.
Today the Cute cute Mathias called me..
"Hello Darren kor kor.I want to speak to Mas selamat Kor kor.." Haha!
Really miss him. But I guess I am also missing someone close to my heart. I never had this feeling for a long long time le.. When I was drown with bulimia, please don't talk about love to me. I don't even love life. I just wanna exercise and "kill"??? What is the use of love where I have my own desires to fulfill.
But the Jovial Darren is back! Not that I am frivolous; in fact I am damn serious with my life now. That is why I seek for someone that I love and truely loves me too.. Haha. But that is not all that important now. Let it come naturally as dictated by God. But this girl that I admire has a good heart and my family really cherish her. Yes! I would take a positive step in knowing her better!
Ok man. I am really getting better these days... Tomorrow is a killer day again.. 24 transfection (Oh My Goodness) to do. Why Dr Ng trusts me so much! haha
Ok good nite guys. I had a tired day!!!
Monday, April 21, 2008
Where's my overtime pay?
Hi angels,
it was a lovely afternoon at moral home. It was not quite the usual crowd but we did quite all right nevertheless. When I was there at 3pm (late as usual), uncle Meng Huat was at the helm of the blackjack table instead of our regular big boss uncle Song. We need a bigger table as the gambling den is attracting more Ah Kong Ah Ma in anticipation of the IRs opening. Song and Sam (S&S) were spotted on the 2nd and 3rd floor doing their rounds to PR with the residents and also some new elderly at the home.
SK can be seen running around in search for MJ kakis for our Ah Ma waiting downstair at the MJ table. Thru his crystal ball, SK had foreseen the angels turnout for this week. And so he brought along his secret weapon: Teochew Opera VCD! It worked like a charm. Ah Kong Ah Ma were glued to the TV. Meanwhile I was beaten up down left right at the checker table by uncle John. I think he misses Poh Yan, even though he tried hard to cover up his yawn of boredom.
That’s about all folks. Thanks for reading.
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The story would have ended if not for our newest additions to the angels family. Introducing Desmond and Darren (D&D)! Desmond is a soccer kaki of SK, and after a brief tour of moral home, he immediately dive into action helping with the games and stuff. Darren is a friend of Josephine Neo, and he was here last week too. He took some photos of Ah Kong Ah Ma last week, and the Ah Kong Ah Ma can be seen grinning ear to ear when he handed them the developed photos this week. Hey Darren, great work! Take more photos in the future and we can put them up on the blog too.
Here are some good news for all the fans of Uncle Lee. After taking a short break at CGH chalet, uncle Lee is back at the home with even more zest, hoping to make up for the lost time at the chess table. He may even make it for the temple outing, why not? Talking about the outing, angels coordinators Shuhua and Huixian were running around auditioning our Ah Kong Ah Ma for the outing. They were also thinking aloud wondering WHY angels have not replied to their email on their attendance for the outing. Hey angels, you know who you are…
And last but not least, despite the low turnout for the 1st sports day of 2008, we did manage to enjoy ourselves thoroughly. Uncle Song conducted a badminton clinic, and I learnt how to hold a racket properly for the 1st time of my life! Nice. Credit goes to the welfare committee and Dietitian angels for making the sports day possible.
Cheers! Have a nice week ahead!
Jin Xiong
Today I had lunch with Mr Steven again. haha! He is quite a quiet friendly guy. Ok Today I ventured on my own method to recover my DNA.. It does seem to work!
Rather anxious for tomorrow's ELISA 2J expt. Look at this:
Lots of hard work just for the preparation alone... I hope for a good result tml.. Dealing with two plates ok! Do hear lots of timer beeping!
Good nite!
Fighting Bulimia
Prescott tells of bulimia battle
Former deputy prime minister John Prescott has confessed to suffering from the eating disorder bulimia.
He told BBC News 24 that he suffered in misery and in silence for 10 years because of the shame of being a high-profile man with the illness.
He writes in the Sunday Times that he would gorge on food and then vomit.
Mr Prescott explains how he could "sup a whole tin of condensed milk", eat trifles "for ever" and eat through a Chinese restaurant's entire menu.
The 69-year-old told the BBC: "I never admitted to this out of the shame and embarrassment.
"I found it difficult as a man like me to admit that I suffered from bulimia - the doctors told me that it was probably due to stress.
An eating disorder can affect anyone at any age, it isn't just young girls, it's boys and men as well Susan Ringwood, Beat |
"I eventually managed to control it and to stop it a few years ago."
Mr Prescott emphasised part of his motivation for the revelation was to de-stigmatise the illness and encourage others to seek help.
He said: "I want to say to the millions of people, do take advice, it can help and it can help you out of a lot of misery that you suffer in silence."
Bravery
He writes in the Sunday Times: "People normally associate it with young women - anorexic girls, models trying to keep their weight down - or women in stressful situations, like Princess Diana."
Health experts praised Mr Prescott for his confession.
Susan Ringwood, chief executive of the eating disorders charity Beat, told Radio 5 Live that bulimia was not only suffered by young women.
It's hard enough for a young girl to confess to, but for a high-profile male politician approaching 70, it's especially impressive Dr Ty Glover |
She said: "We do know that an eating disorder can affect anyone at any age, it isn't just young girls, it's boys and men as well, so in that sense it wasn't a surprise.
"And neither was it a surprise that someone felt they really needed to keep this a secret, and even say they felt ashamed of themselves.
"And that feeling can stop people getting help."
Consultant psychiatrist Dr Ty Glover, an eating disorders specialist at Cheadle Royal Hospital in Cheshire, said: "It's hard enough for a young girl to confess to, but for a high-profile male politician approaching 70, it's especially impressive.
"It seriously makes me think that maybe we're completely missing a whole audience of middle-aged men who are too scared to admit they have a problem."
Dr Glover said one in 10 sufferers were male and that Mr Prescott's brave admission should encourage other men to seek help.
What I did was stuff my face with anything around, any old rubbish, burgers, chocolate, crisps, fish and chips, loads of it, till I felt sick John Prescott |
Mr Prescott, who stepped down from Labour's front bench last year after ten years as deputy PM, said people would never suspect he suffered from the disorder and that some could accuse him of not being "a very successful bulimic" because his weight did not drop.
He said he began binging and vomiting during his years in the shadow cabinet in the 1980s, but the condition got worse when Labour came to power in 1997.
"So what I did was stuff my face with anything around, any old rubbish, burgers, chocolate, crisps, fish and chips, loads of it, till I felt sick - but at least I'd had the pleasure of stuffing my face and feeling really full.
"Then there would be a weird kind of pleasure in vomiting and feeling relieved."
Secret eating
He continued: "I could sup a whole tin of Carnation condensed milk, just for the taste, stupid things like that. Marks & Spencer trifles, I still love them, one of my favourites. I can eat them for ever.
"Whenever I go to Mr Chu's in Hull, my favourite Chinese restaurant in the whole world . . . I could eat my way through the entire menu."
He speaks of trying to hide his bulimia from colleagues and his wife, Pauline.
"I thought, of course, I was being clever, and no-one would ever know, but Pauline realised in the end. The signs in the toilet gave it away, and all the missing food."
Seventeen years ago Mrs Prescott persuaded her husband to get help from the House of Commons doctor and he was sent on to a consultant.
My weight, though, is still over 15 stone - as I do love my food - but I try not to snack between meals and to eat at sensible times John Prescott |
"I turned up and found his waiting room full of young women. I was the only man there. I felt a right twerp. Luckily none of them shopped me to the press.
"Perhaps they thought I was on a fact-finding mission, never for one moment thinking that a man of my age and build could be suffering from bulimia nervosa, but that's what the consultant said I had."
He received treatment, but he continued to be bulimic when he became deputy prime minister in 1997.
But now he says he has not suffered from the disorder for a year and exercises in the gym for 45 minutes a day.
"My weight, though, is still over 15 stone - as I do love my food - but I try not to snack between meals and to eat at sensible times."
Mr Prescott, who also has diabetes, is now supporting the National Health Service's awareness campaign on food disorders.
Now we know.. Do not suffer in silence!
Fighting Bulimia
Prescott tells of bulimia battle
John Prescott talks about his bulimia
Former deputy prime minister John Prescott has confessed to suffering from the eating disorder bulimia.
He told BBC News 24 that he suffered in misery and in silence for 10 years because of the shame of being a high-profile man with the illness.
He writes in the Sunday Times that he would gorge on food and then vomit.
Mr Prescott explains how he could "sup a whole tin of condensed milk", eat trifles "for ever" and eat through a Chinese restaurant's entire menu.
The 69-year-old told the BBC: "I never admitted to this out of the shame and embarrassment.
"I found it difficult as a man like me to admit that I suffered from bulimia - the doctors told me that it was probably due to stress.
An eating disorder can affect anyone at any age, it isn't just young girls, it's boys and men as well
Susan Ringwood, Beat
"I eventually managed to control it and to stop it a few years ago."
Mr Prescott emphasised part of his motivation for the revelation was to de-stigmatise the illness and encourage others to seek help.
He said: "I want to say to the millions of people, do take advice, it can help and it can help you out of a lot of misery that you suffer in silence."
Bravery
He writes in the Sunday Times: "People normally associate it with young women - anorexic girls, models trying to keep their weight down - or women in stressful situations, like Princess Diana."
Health experts praised Mr Prescott for his confession.
Susan Ringwood, chief executive of the eating disorders charity Beat, told Radio 5 Live that bulimia was not only suffered by young women.
It's hard enough for a young girl to confess to, but for a high-profile male politician approaching 70, it's especially impressive
Dr Ty Glover
She said: "We do know that an eating disorder can affect anyone at any age, it isn't just young girls, it's boys and men as well, so in that sense it wasn't a surprise.
"And neither was it a surprise that someone felt they really needed to keep this a secret, and even say they felt ashamed of themselves.
"And that feeling can stop people getting help."
Consultant psychiatrist Dr Ty Glover, an eating disorders specialist at Cheadle Royal Hospital in Cheshire, said: "It's hard enough for a young girl to confess to, but for a high-profile male politician approaching 70, it's especially impressive.
"It seriously makes me think that maybe we're completely missing a whole audience of middle-aged men who are too scared to admit they have a problem."
Dr Glover said one in 10 sufferers were male and that Mr Prescott's brave admission should encourage other men to seek help.
What I did was stuff my face with anything around, any old rubbish, burgers, chocolate, crisps, fish and chips, loads of it, till I felt sick
John Prescott
Mr Prescott, who stepped down from Labour's front bench last year after ten years as deputy PM, said people would never suspect he suffered from the disorder and that some could accuse him of not being "a very successful bulimic" because his weight did not drop.
He said he began binging and vomiting during his years in the shadow cabinet in the 1980s, but the condition got worse when Labour came to power in 1997.
"So what I did was stuff my face with anything around, any old rubbish, burgers, chocolate, crisps, fish and chips, loads of it, till I felt sick - but at least I'd had the pleasure of stuffing my face and feeling really full.
"Then there would be a weird kind of pleasure in vomiting and feeling relieved."
Secret eating
He continued: "I could sup a whole tin of Carnation condensed milk, just for the taste, stupid things like that. Marks & Spencer trifles, I still love them, one of my favourites. I can eat them for ever.
Archive footage of John Prescott
"Whenever I go to Mr Chu's in Hull, my favourite Chinese restaurant in the whole world . . . I could eat my way through the entire menu."
He speaks of trying to hide his bulimia from colleagues and his wife, Pauline.
"I thought, of course, I was being clever, and no-one would ever know, but Pauline realised in the end. The signs in the toilet gave it away, and all the missing food."
Seventeen years ago Mrs Prescott persuaded her husband to get help from the House of Commons doctor and he was sent on to a consultant.
My weight, though, is still over 15 stone - as I do love my food - but I try not to snack between meals and to eat at sensible times
John Prescott
"I turned up and found his waiting room full of young women. I was the only man there. I felt a right twerp. Luckily none of them shopped me to the press.
"Perhaps they thought I was on a fact-finding mission, never for one moment thinking that a man of my age and build could be suffering from bulimia nervosa, but that's what the consultant said I had."
He received treatment, but he continued to be bulimic when he became deputy prime minister in 1997.
But now he says he has not suffered from the disorder for a year and exercises in the gym for 45 minutes a day.
"My weight, though, is still over 15 stone - as I do love my food - but I try not to snack between meals and to eat at sensible times."
Mr Prescott, who also has diabetes, is now supporting the National Health Service's awareness campaign on food disorders.
Now we know.. Do not suffer in silence!
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Mr Fair price
wha... Spending lots of money on groceries... I have to cut down.
As usual, I enjoyed my driving lesson again.. And it was really a breeze.
Sometips for myself. Please be patient; do not rush. Give ways to others! Use more of the side mirrors ok! Lastly, take things easy.... A week more to go.. I will pass!
I am still thinking about last nite. About the cute Matthias and the joy I had. I told my mum that and she say that I would find it fun because it is just a one time thing.. Just to mention if I were to raise the child, she say it would be an onerous task. Ok ok.. den the old story of how I was a menace to my parents as a toddler arose again...
Then we in the night, we went Hougang Mall for dinner... I tried something new today: Abalone noodle. Not that I am a fan of abalone but would reallylike to try it out at the food court.
I guess Sunday night is the only time where I could interact with my Sis, whom I still love dearly. I really love my sis. But I think I owed her deeply. It would be almost impossible for me to get back the louise that I use to know because I have neglected her so much in the past. It is hard to fill the gap, but let time heal.
In this blog, I want to say this to someone very special to me: Thank you for the encouragement and the effort to see me through this. You brighten up my new life. Thank you. I love you for who you are to me, a special friend, a comforter and a delight in my life. I pray that the Lord will bless you bountifully!
Saturday, April 19, 2008
my happiest night!
Gosh---> I must say that Char Kuay Teow taste heavenly. Wasn't that grossed out by the oiliness since there isn't any visible oil to begin with. I was savouring every mouth this time, instead of choosing the eggs and cockles only- I grabbed everything! Also I ate stewed beef and chicken noodles.. Dry one ok! That means with the oil, that I am usually very paranoid of! If that is stil not enough, what about another slice of kaya pancake? Hahaha!
Now I am not controlled by food but I control what I eat! But I wasn't too happy with my mum though. She has been quite temperamental these days. I am trying my best to keep my mood up! That is why, I decided to do meaningful stuff like Voluntary work every saturday! Yeah!!!
---->The Old Folks home that I've been visiting!
Come have a look at the volunteers' blog!
Some pics again:
Before I went to the old folks home, I got a surprise invitation by josephine. She asked me along to her family BBQ party at aloha loyang. It was Jose who first intro me to this old folks' home.
What happened atnight really marks another high point of my life. This night, I cherish my life even more and more. Ok, I shall confess: I love children! They are so cute and fun to play with! Hey I am not peadophilic but I just happen to have so much fun together with Josephine, entertaining her nephew, Mathias:
I proudly say that this is my best night ever!
I had control over my eating now. Despite the spread of food, I concentrate myself more on Mathias and talking with Jose. Seeing the child's innocence really make me want to cherish my life more! Yes! Thanks my friend for making my night! I was very delighted to see her care and concern for kids. She is like a small mum. I must say she will be a very good OT.
All right man.. It's late... I am thinking of buying Macs for my family for breakfast tml.... Yeah...
Friday, April 18, 2008
I need something call consistency
Then Doctor Ng gave me more trust when he passed me more of his sample for me to take care... Then I did something new again. I went to investigate the power Pen Strep--> an antibiotic. So I went to thaw out a 10ml alliquote. Just when I was about to use, I saw some yellow stuff at the bottom. So I went to ask Dr Niki for advice. Guess what, I ended up fishing more work to do. She asked me to open up a new bottle and make new alliquotes. Ok. But I enjoyed it. I am like occupying my time with more meaningful stuff!
I enjoyed lunch!... Some random pics...
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Busy week
Sorry for Missing in Action!!!
I was really too busy these days. Even Mom had to complain. I really toiled for my research work and also my tuition work.
I've spentThree Freaking Nights preparing notes on chemical and ionic equilibrium and at the same timeplaning out new experiments to try out.
I am actually very contented that I have such a golden opportunity to think creatively and design my own experimental parameters.
Why am I so busy even when my cell cultures are dead? The reason is in the question itself... REPEAT THE PROCESS!!!
But this time it is much more complicated. Intead of IFN-gamma batches, I will be dealing with a new vector anti-herceptin-2.
This woul mean that I've got 16 samples to look after,16 transfection, and my main task these days is to prepare and purify those DNA vectors that I need
Yah. Sounds simple. But Bloody Hell! It seems like DNA is like shying aways from me. Each time I do a digestion with restriction enzyme, I've got very little yield. I wonder wds wrong man?
What's more... I have to prepare media, reagents for ELISA, alliquote out Antibody standards, sampling, my cell passaging.... the list goes on. However, the highlight of this week would be the teaching of a new student attached to our department
Again, Dr ng is really nice to gie the honour to be a mentor... Furthermore, to someone older than me!haha. She is none other than Thian Thian! My first bio disciple! She is really friendly and very willing to learn. I love this kind of people!
This week also accounts for the spawning of my new lunch Kahkis. They are indeed a bunch of more approachable people since we are roughly in the same age group.
Also, just today, I joined Dr Ng, my supervisor, for lunch. Guess what? We talked about girls la! He look so studious but actually he has exquisite knowledge about relationship and courtship.
He said that uni is the best place and time to get a girlfriend, and he advised me never to get a girlfriend at the same workplace.
ok it is rather late and i need to catch up on my sleep. sweet dreams guys!
Monday, April 14, 2008
Getting busier these days...
Let me write about Sunday first then...
Ok Morning was tuition as usual. My tutee is more attentive this time and a little more responsive.. I guess he got some admonishings from his dad. Then I got my pay for the tuition! Yeah! $250... Wait... the uncle is giving me $10 more! So nice of him.
Then I went for my driving lesson. Oh my when is my last time entering the circuit? I actually enjoyed my lesson that day and Tommy, my instructor, was cool that day. He really keepedme entertained. Ok But the lesson cost me $62.
Then I went home with an instant surprise treat from mum... She steam pau for me as there were left overs from Ching Ming.
Then I went to meet my friend, Alvin, at Singapura Plaza... Guess what. I actually want to meet him at Bugis Junction but I ended up taking a bus to bishan.. Haiz.. not paying attention ar Darren. In the end we met up at PS.
We enjoyed talking cock and planning our Taiwan Trip... Yes talking about Taiwan Dollar, we have two conflicting rates at two different money changers.. Alvin is a very nice guy and a man ful of integrity. Yes. I would feel good to go taiwan with him man!
When I returned home, I bought 4 packets of Durian. I wanted to leave one for Pa pa but guess what... Me and Ma finished all of them.
That pretty much summarizes the Sunday.
Now for the busy today. Yes.I have traced my contamination and now I know why... It's mymedia that has bacteria la... Haiz. Today got some thrashing from See Jye. Sometimes he really think that he is the boss, can screw people around. Ya da Ya da... Nevermind. I have patience ok!
Today Dr Ng spoke about the new plansfor transfection and also the teaching that I should give when the new student comes... yeah!
ok man... it's rather late... I've gotta sleep! nitez
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Live this life... For others!
Friday, April 11, 2008
how disappointing!
Even my back up in the 6well plate has turned cloudy!!!
-Could it be my media? Sianz.
Now have to start all over again! Yeah...all my Saturday & Sundays that I spent for taking care of my cells have warrant to be fruitless. Well I can onlysay this has to do with my luck! Sigh... I have taken the necessary precaution but...
Ok enough!Haha. What is failure to me man! Now that I have this failure in mind, I will be even extra careful in future!
Well. Today I was busy with ELISA. Dr Ng ask me to redo again because my control shows discrepencies. So Today I was super busy because I stretch my dilution of standard rightdown to one pico-gram per ml. Which is almost nothing la. But it is just fun to play around and see what happens. By the I proposed this trail one! haha.. But the results doesn't seemed that convincing again- with some kinks at odd place on the absorbance curve. I've spent last night coming up with the protocol. Again- My hardwork didn't pay off!
Hopefully next week will be a better week! With transfection on Wednesday and media prep on Monday. Me being a teacher on Tuesday for an attachment student. Damn it man! I can't live without working hard!
Let's leave the unhappiness behind and move on!
Hey I am excited about tomorrow!!! Must be a good day ahead man!
I will be heading to an old folk's home tml to do some voluntary work and to gain more insights to life, as well as to spend sometime with my good friend- Josephine!
Haha. After that we will be going for my dad's b day dinner. So let's rock on!
At the end of the day, it is just a day--- It really depends on how you live your day. so don't waste it away!
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- A student from NUS! Material Science and engineering! Ok been down in life but now I have learnt how to cope wit difficulties in life. Please do not hesitate to make friends with me! God bless you and enjoy my journey!