I had a wonderful chat last night while working my way through my presentation slides. I sudden felt relieved and seemingly having a new life. Sometimes you need a down time in your life so that you will learn how to appreciate those around you and not take them for granted.
Concern is the word that has been constantly down graded to naggings... But you notice the values of this nagging when you are hit with a crisis. I love my friends; I cherish my family. I must be positive!
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Sunday, May 11, 2008
A wonderful family dinner
I really enjoyed tonight's outing. My mum is indeed in a good mood today nd I am happy. Well I almost made her sad again because I took oo long to cycle and buy her her favourite snack...
But let's not dwell on the unhappy stuff. Today we went to Vivo! Seriously speaking, Vivo is huge that I rell never have the opportunity to explore every single corner that this mall has to offer.
Yes let's dive into dinner first. You know what we had??? EARL SWENSON'S... It is really delicious. Yes this time I am able to control my eating. I took a slower pace. Although it has a salad buffet bar, I didn't fill my plate to the brim and took what I relly want. I ate slowly and refill only three times. I have my limits.. YES! I have control now! There is much more to learn. Yes I need more training in buffets... Then we paid Tangs a visit... well window shoppin I guess... But I sort of learn how to relax myself by this kinds of shopping.. RETAIL THERAPY???? haha
My mum and sis headed to the female undies section.. so no choice, I have to follow. At least I tried to make myself comfortable and not feel queasy at all. Come on.. I am forced there ok! I am not a pervert!
Ok picture time!
Ok man Good nite guys!
But let's not dwell on the unhappy stuff. Today we went to Vivo! Seriously speaking, Vivo is huge that I rell never have the opportunity to explore every single corner that this mall has to offer.
Yes let's dive into dinner first. You know what we had??? EARL SWENSON'S... It is really delicious. Yes this time I am able to control my eating. I took a slower pace. Although it has a salad buffet bar, I didn't fill my plate to the brim and took what I relly want. I ate slowly and refill only three times. I have my limits.. YES! I have control now! There is much more to learn. Yes I need more training in buffets... Then we paid Tangs a visit... well window shoppin I guess... But I sort of learn how to relax myself by this kinds of shopping.. RETAIL THERAPY???? haha
My mum and sis headed to the female undies section.. so no choice, I have to follow. At least I tried to make myself comfortable and not feel queasy at all. Come on.. I am forced there ok! I am not a pervert!
Ok picture time!
Ok man Good nite guys!
My Lovely Mum
I really want to dedicate this Blog post to my mum.
She is a woman of tenacity, of strength and courage. I've pick up both good and bad traits from her, albeit a little less from my dad! Mum and I have walk through a rather intereseting journey with me, and I must admit that these 22 year must not have been smooth-saling. However tulmultous the path may be, her undaunted spirit lingers.
Fortitude and determination is her ethos. She firmly belief in having full confidence in everything that one does.
I take pride in whatever she has contributed to this family, being a hardcore engineer and then sacrifising her highly held glory to become an unsung hero- A Housewife.
Today's newspaper shows how much a housewife should be paid if all errands were accounted for.. It summed up to be like $23000 a month. There is a catch here... Why such a high pay where a common maid could only command a monthly pay of $500? The ultimate truth is that mothers are just irreplacable, they really do more than house keeping. They give their hearts out when it comes to the well being of each family member. Being A housewife is not an easy task and I respect all housewifes.
The Lord has been good to me. Everytime when there is a major crisis in life, I aways know that my mum is my shelter and she is God-given. She is my safety haven, my temple of solace. Nothing can replace her.
My you have always been there for me. I really love you! I will do you proud!
She is a woman of tenacity, of strength and courage. I've pick up both good and bad traits from her, albeit a little less from my dad! Mum and I have walk through a rather intereseting journey with me, and I must admit that these 22 year must not have been smooth-saling. However tulmultous the path may be, her undaunted spirit lingers.
Fortitude and determination is her ethos. She firmly belief in having full confidence in everything that one does.
I take pride in whatever she has contributed to this family, being a hardcore engineer and then sacrifising her highly held glory to become an unsung hero- A Housewife.
Today's newspaper shows how much a housewife should be paid if all errands were accounted for.. It summed up to be like $23000 a month. There is a catch here... Why such a high pay where a common maid could only command a monthly pay of $500? The ultimate truth is that mothers are just irreplacable, they really do more than house keeping. They give their hearts out when it comes to the well being of each family member. Being A housewife is not an easy task and I respect all housewifes.
The Lord has been good to me. Everytime when there is a major crisis in life, I aways know that my mum is my shelter and she is God-given. She is my safety haven, my temple of solace. Nothing can replace her.
My you have always been there for me. I really love you! I will do you proud!
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Beautiful Girl...
I am so heartened by invitations from my best JC friends: Rende & Jonathan, to watch Iron Man together. I really want to say I didn't enjoy a proper movie for such a long time!!!!!!!! My previous attempt to relax with a movie with my friends was marred by an axiomatic response to do hand grip and bicep curls during the show. Crazy right! I have no idea how my friends have the patience with me..
The movie was great and I actually interacted with the movie itself- I was totally engrossed and at some part, sway my head as if I was the protaganist, avoiding the bullets sprayed on me.
At the end of it all.. Nothing beats the sms sent by my angel... Last night, there was this sudden sms from her which is nothing serious... Finally I've got a candid sms from her... Yeah. Great interaction took place. I really feel happy but at the same time felt an overwhelming concern for her lethargy. Well I really cherish a good friend like her and I dunno whether she felt the same for me???
Anyway, I was so tense last night and instead of having a slumber, I went into a duel with sleeplessness!
Haiz.. Beautiful girl.... What can I hope of us? Yesterday I learnt something from Jonathan actually. He said to have a strong relationship there must be a strong and solid foundation- One that streches on trust and based on mutual respect. If there are difference (bound to have), they should be resolved in a peaceful and repectful way rather than to see giving up in that relationship as the best option. Everyone is special.... That is what my colleague told me... There is no such thing as wierd. How people look at and perceive you is uncontrollable but as long as you did your best to potray the best you can (candidly), there will always be breakthroughs...
Ok guys. I look forward to NUS!
The movie was great and I actually interacted with the movie itself- I was totally engrossed and at some part, sway my head as if I was the protaganist, avoiding the bullets sprayed on me.
At the end of it all.. Nothing beats the sms sent by my angel... Last night, there was this sudden sms from her which is nothing serious... Finally I've got a candid sms from her... Yeah. Great interaction took place. I really feel happy but at the same time felt an overwhelming concern for her lethargy. Well I really cherish a good friend like her and I dunno whether she felt the same for me???
Anyway, I was so tense last night and instead of having a slumber, I went into a duel with sleeplessness!
Haiz.. Beautiful girl.... What can I hope of us? Yesterday I learnt something from Jonathan actually. He said to have a strong relationship there must be a strong and solid foundation- One that streches on trust and based on mutual respect. If there are difference (bound to have), they should be resolved in a peaceful and repectful way rather than to see giving up in that relationship as the best option. Everyone is special.... That is what my colleague told me... There is no such thing as wierd. How people look at and perceive you is uncontrollable but as long as you did your best to potray the best you can (candidly), there will always be breakthroughs...
Ok guys. I look forward to NUS!
Monday, May 5, 2008
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Another relaxing day....
Yes... Relax. I hope I can go out later... Need to run errands. Actually I feel quite wierd you know.. It is like I am a pigeon trapped at home.
I want to go out.. but I can't.. Not exercise... But to spend my time doing stuff like library, shopping.. just looking around.
Actually, life is short, so I really can't just let it slip away. I really want to have something to do every moment.... Not the compulsion. And certainly not exercising or eating every moment... That I will revert back to my old bulimic Darren.. the evil one..
Just now, my mum commented on me being very thin again..
I told myself weight and bulimia is two different thing. I try not to let this issue sadden my heart. But frankly speaking, there are happy people who are thin and are not bulimic! So the most important thing is, like what my Aunt wil say: must have the correct thinking. That is what is the most important!!! You can hover around the ideal weight and still be bulimic! That is certainly not what I want. I want a recovery that is long term and that is beneficiary to my health... Not a short term one that serves to create temporal happiness to those close to me.
I know it sounds selfish... And I have already broken my parents hearts.. Please give me some time...
Thanks Cui Fang for the conversation just now.. If not I really got nothing to look forward to...
I want to go out.. but I can't.. Not exercise... But to spend my time doing stuff like library, shopping.. just looking around.
Actually, life is short, so I really can't just let it slip away. I really want to have something to do every moment.... Not the compulsion. And certainly not exercising or eating every moment... That I will revert back to my old bulimic Darren.. the evil one..
Just now, my mum commented on me being very thin again..
I told myself weight and bulimia is two different thing. I try not to let this issue sadden my heart. But frankly speaking, there are happy people who are thin and are not bulimic! So the most important thing is, like what my Aunt wil say: must have the correct thinking. That is what is the most important!!! You can hover around the ideal weight and still be bulimic! That is certainly not what I want. I want a recovery that is long term and that is beneficiary to my health... Not a short term one that serves to create temporal happiness to those close to me.
I know it sounds selfish... And I have already broken my parents hearts.. Please give me some time...
Thanks Cui Fang for the conversation just now.. If not I really got nothing to look forward to...
Saturday, May 3, 2008
Today is my best Ah Gong Ah Ma day...
Yeah! Finally! Today I had a successful interaction with the elderlies!
1. I played blackjack.. The old Aunty way.. They taught me how to shuffle their way and ho to be a good "zheng kae"
2. I sang Hokkien song/ chinese oldies
3. I massaged Uncle John
4. Manage to persuade an old uncle from 3rd storey down to join the rest.
5. Feed one friendly old uncle who can speak ENGLISH!!!
Nicole and a baby from one of the volunteers...
Oh yes today was the first time I engage with the moral angels for brainstorming and meeting. Next week, we are bringing the Ah Gong Ah Ma to China Town... or contigency plan would be Terminal 3, Changi Airport.
Yes, Next Saturday, my class is having a port luck party... Hope I can come up with nice sandwiches!!!
Alright man! gotta go!
Friday, May 2, 2008
Love is a powerful object
Hey man... I love my new bike... Now it is so convenient! Haha! Last time I am so crazy about exercise, don't know how to relax. I really enjoy the leisure ride that the bicycle can provide. Nowadays, I sort of getting lazier... I think it is the medicine.. Well maybe not lazier but more normal i guess! Haha... Surely one day I will get back to extra normal!
Oh yes my interview did go smoothly! Yeah! Praise the Lord! I am accepted by NUS. Although I must start afresh, am not afraid or ashamed! At least I spent a year relooking into the holes of my life.
Ok as for yesterday:
Mathias is so cute la! He really made my day... Actually not only him... But the whole family... They are so warm! Finally got to see Cui en, Josephine's sis (Thanks for the wishes :) )and the hardworking Josephine Dad!
I really enjoyed my time... Guess this is part of life!
Oh yes my interview did go smoothly! Yeah! Praise the Lord! I am accepted by NUS. Although I must start afresh, am not afraid or ashamed! At least I spent a year relooking into the holes of my life.
Ok as for yesterday:
Mathias is so cute la! He really made my day... Actually not only him... But the whole family... They are so warm! Finally got to see Cui en, Josephine's sis (Thanks for the wishes :) )and the hardworking Josephine Dad!
I really enjoyed my time... Guess this is part of life!
Interview???
Hey NUS. Here I come.
I am gonna start my journey a fresh. With a new heart, with a rejuvinated soul! Yeah!
Today.. or rather, 2 more hours later, I am gonna see the head and deputy head of Material Science & Engineering Dept. I wonder what are they gonna ask me man.
Yes... Yesterday I had an enjoyable time man.. I will load the pictures tonight!
Ok.. all the best Darren!
I am gonna start my journey a fresh. With a new heart, with a rejuvinated soul! Yeah!
Today.. or rather, 2 more hours later, I am gonna see the head and deputy head of Material Science & Engineering Dept. I wonder what are they gonna ask me man.
Yes... Yesterday I had an enjoyable time man.. I will load the pictures tonight!
Ok.. all the best Darren!
Thursday, May 1, 2008
What is the Holy Grail of Science?
"The creation of blood vessels is one of the holy grails of regenerative medicine "
Professor Julian ChaudhuriBath University
Talking about regeneration, it really gives me an idea of giving back life to people. Jst like how I got back my life, I really hope Ican give life to people too... In the tech news of BBC, I happen to chance upon two medical discovery- One of which is synthethic blood vessel and the other is Extra cellular tissue implant and growth. Talking about my future area of research, which is too earlyto catch a glimpse of... I would most likely endeavour upon the hopes of naotechnology to come up with some bio compatible material or medicine. By far, medicine has its impact manifested via the chemical way and very few medicine actually uses physical interations to weed out errors in our human system (probably with the exception of some chinese medicine). I really wish for that day to come, when I have enough say to make an impact to the scientific/medical arena.
Talking about my life, some celebrities shared the same sorrow as me:
Celebrities With EDs
Jane Fonda- You've seen her in movies and you may have seen her playing some sports. Others know her as an activist and some personally know her as a wife and a mother. In the 1970's she went public with her bulimiarexia. She had an ED for about 20 years!
Jamie-Lynn Sigler- Or to us she's Tony Soprano's daughter. She became a spokeswoman for ED men/women.Tracey Gold- She was an actress since she was four, doing soda commercials and working a role in Growing Pains. Not only did she have an ED but she ALSO had ADD.
Sally Field- Anybody remember her? She was the Flying Nun. No wonder she had an ED.
Carre Otis- If you dont know who she is, I suggest you start buying some better thinspiration magazines. Shes a top fashion model who's had an ED for nearly 17yrs.
Paula Abdul- For the non-American Idol fans, shes a singer and a dancer famous for her necklines and her skin-tight dresses. She had such an ED that she had a "food cop" patrolling her kitchen! I wish I had one of thoes! She used to exercise 4-5 times a day AND she does yoga. And you think YOU work hard to maintain your figure?
Victoria Beckham- Remember back to your Spice Girl phase... oh come on... admit it, we all went through the Spice Girls at one point. Victoria Beckham, or Posh Spice, told about her ED in her autobiography. As far as I can remember, she looked to be at an average weight to me. Shows what makeup can do to a person I guess.
Joan Rivers- Shes a hilarious commedienne, author, entrepreneur AND a mother. Talk about multi-tasking! Her ED developed after her husbands suicide. She delt with her problems by binging on cookies, entire cakes and gallons of ice cream. Shes now recovered.
The Barbi Twins- They were playboy playmates at one point. They were ana/mia both, and shared their insite as part of Body Image Awareness Week. They really do look like Barbies! I'll try to find a good picture of them for my thinspiration page.Whitney Houston- Publicly expressed her eating disorder when passing out at a concert. She should have taken her multvitamins.
Courtney Thorne-Smith- A former star of Ally McBeal, aparently she still has an eating disorder.
Yada yada yada.. The list goes on... but there seems toe no males... Am I a shame to my community? Hmmm... Something to ponder upon. Right now, I am gaining back my old Darren, the friendly, sociable YOMAN. Yes.. I will be back.
Professor Julian ChaudhuriBath University
Talking about regeneration, it really gives me an idea of giving back life to people. Jst like how I got back my life, I really hope Ican give life to people too... In the tech news of BBC, I happen to chance upon two medical discovery- One of which is synthethic blood vessel and the other is Extra cellular tissue implant and growth. Talking about my future area of research, which is too earlyto catch a glimpse of... I would most likely endeavour upon the hopes of naotechnology to come up with some bio compatible material or medicine. By far, medicine has its impact manifested via the chemical way and very few medicine actually uses physical interations to weed out errors in our human system (probably with the exception of some chinese medicine). I really wish for that day to come, when I have enough say to make an impact to the scientific/medical arena.
Talking about my life, some celebrities shared the same sorrow as me:
Celebrities With EDs
Jane Fonda- You've seen her in movies and you may have seen her playing some sports. Others know her as an activist and some personally know her as a wife and a mother. In the 1970's she went public with her bulimiarexia. She had an ED for about 20 years!
Jamie-Lynn Sigler- Or to us she's Tony Soprano's daughter. She became a spokeswoman for ED men/women.Tracey Gold- She was an actress since she was four, doing soda commercials and working a role in Growing Pains. Not only did she have an ED but she ALSO had ADD.
Sally Field- Anybody remember her? She was the Flying Nun. No wonder she had an ED.
Carre Otis- If you dont know who she is, I suggest you start buying some better thinspiration magazines. Shes a top fashion model who's had an ED for nearly 17yrs.
Paula Abdul- For the non-American Idol fans, shes a singer and a dancer famous for her necklines and her skin-tight dresses. She had such an ED that she had a "food cop" patrolling her kitchen! I wish I had one of thoes! She used to exercise 4-5 times a day AND she does yoga. And you think YOU work hard to maintain your figure?
Victoria Beckham- Remember back to your Spice Girl phase... oh come on... admit it, we all went through the Spice Girls at one point. Victoria Beckham, or Posh Spice, told about her ED in her autobiography. As far as I can remember, she looked to be at an average weight to me. Shows what makeup can do to a person I guess.
Joan Rivers- Shes a hilarious commedienne, author, entrepreneur AND a mother. Talk about multi-tasking! Her ED developed after her husbands suicide. She delt with her problems by binging on cookies, entire cakes and gallons of ice cream. Shes now recovered.
The Barbi Twins- They were playboy playmates at one point. They were ana/mia both, and shared their insite as part of Body Image Awareness Week. They really do look like Barbies! I'll try to find a good picture of them for my thinspiration page.Whitney Houston- Publicly expressed her eating disorder when passing out at a concert. She should have taken her multvitamins.
Courtney Thorne-Smith- A former star of Ally McBeal, aparently she still has an eating disorder.
Yada yada yada.. The list goes on... but there seems toe no males... Am I a shame to my community? Hmmm... Something to ponder upon. Right now, I am gaining back my old Darren, the friendly, sociable YOMAN. Yes.. I will be back.
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